pregnancy scare, anyone?

It is really hard to be a woman. Today I felt relieved my period arrived. It's been two months since I've missed my period. Somehow, it felt funny and weird that I got scared to be pregnant again. I thought how could it be when we were careful? While my friend was happily announcing that she's pregnant, I was secretly hoping I wasn't. Not that I don't want to have another baby. It's just that I feel I am not yet ready for it. I'm scared that my ordeal during my first delivery will happen again. And my doctor had made it clear that I should wait after two years if we want to have a second child especially because I was on C-section and I was experiencing postpartum hypertension on my first pregnancy. For many nights I have dreamed about getting pregnant again and I was sweating each time I awoke.

Does anybody feel the same way (scared) about getting pregnant again after having their first baby? I'd love to hear your thoughts.

writing positivity

I haven't updated this blog for so long. I wasn't quite sure if this blog is worth really worth keeping after all because I really don't want to give the impression that I am a negative thinker. So far, I've been writing negatively, right?

So, how about a quick positive writeup? Thankfully, I've already found my place in this online world writing stuffs here and there. I finally got the job I want and need. The good news is that I never have to leave home. So, this pretty much explains why I haven't updated this blog quite as often as I wanted to do.

I'll catch up!